Therapy – it gets worse before it gets better….

So I am three weeks into therapy. I should be feeling better right? All my problems should be obvious by now and we should have answers tumbling out to fix them. I should be feeling like I can see an improvement? Er, no, nope, not at all.  In fact, it get worse before it gets […]

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Back I go. Week 2 of therapy.

Today is therapy day. Session 2. Last week’s session was rushed and because I was nervous about what would happen and be said, and because I had rather stupidly overloaded my morning both before and after the session, taking on too many tasks and other people’s problems my mind was all over the place. I […]

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And back I go…

Back I go.  Sat in a waiting room. Paperwork filled in. Assessment complete.  Waiting to see a complete stranger who will soon know more about me than most people who think they know me.  Who will probably ask me questions that will make me cry.  Who will listen whilst I pour out the jumbled, angry, […]

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It won’t just go away…

My mental health. My anxiety. It won’t just go away.  I can’t just decide that after a life time of anxiety that I’m going to be just ok. My mental health doesn’t work for the convenience and comfort of other people.  I don’t wake up every day thinking “how can I make other people’s lives […]

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I will not apologise for my mental health…

My name is Karen. I am a wife, a mother, I work part time. I knit, I like to cook. I like to eat. I like to read. I like to watch police documentaries, when I can’t sleep. I have a family and friends who love me. I like to run, when the mood takes […]

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That’s me in the corner, baking bread…

When the going gets tough, or I am tired, or stressed, I don’t go shopping, I don’t get drunk, I don’t watch sad movies to allow myself to cry, or eat vast quantities of comfort foods.  I do things, productive and creative things.  I like to cook, but mostly I like to bake.  It makes […]

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It’s not me, it’s you…

  Something I have learned in my journey to dealing with my own mental health and getting myself into a more fixed better place is that not everyone wants you to be in that better place. Not everyone has grace for you to change your life. People don’t cope very well when someone makes changes […]

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