Anxiety and me: Winter is bad for my mental health.

This is the first time I have voiced that sentence aloud. “Winter is bad for my mental health”. I have thought it for the longest time, but then dismissed that thought as silly, hippy talk. Too much Doctor Googling and not enough common sense. But in therapy we have been discussing the cycles of my […]

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You are only human

“You are only human” My therapist said that to me last week. “You have set yourself such a high standard that now it’s hard for you to admit that you have parts of you that make you vulnerable, and need to be looked after” “You push yourself so hard, you give yourself no grace, and […]

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I may have anxiety but I still know my own mind…

The long winded title for this post should be “just because I have a mental health diagnosis, doesn’t mean I don’t know my own mind and what is or isn’t good for it”. I often think that people with mental health issues like anxiety and depression, once they have come to terms with that and […]

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In 2019 I am choosing me…

2019 is in full swing, we are almost midway through January, and life has moved on from the Christmas madness. I went back to therapy last week, and it was ok. I am doing ok. We seem to be getting to the root of what may be the cause of some of my anxiety and […]

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Back I go… Anxiety makes you tired

There comes a point when you are having a mental health crisis where you reach the bottom of the ride. I tend to describe my anxiety like a fairground ride.  You have your uphill climb, which is hard work, but you have no choice. Then you have the slow but gentle ride along a flat […]

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Back I go. Therapy. What anxiety makes me do…

This week is my last week of therapy before Christmas. I am not excited about my session but I am ok with going and last week was helpful, if not a fair bit painful.  This is a brief post this week, but people have asked me what anxiety makes me do, how it manifests in […]

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Why I gave up meat, and it’s not for the reasons you think…

In January of this year, I gave up meat. Well, actually it was almost February, but for most of January I hadn’t eaten much meat. I caused alarm on Facebook by sharing my new quasi vegetarian status and I have shared a few posts about giving up meat.  I have eaten meat occasionally when I […]

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Therapy – it gets worse before it gets better….

So I am three weeks into therapy. I should be feeling better right? All my problems should be obvious by now and we should have answers tumbling out to fix them. I should be feeling like I can see an improvement? Er, no, nope, not at all.  In fact, it get worse before it gets […]

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Back I go. Week 2 of therapy.

Today is therapy day. Session 2. Last week’s session was rushed and because I was nervous about what would happen and be said, and because I had rather stupidly overloaded my morning both before and after the session, taking on too many tasks and other people’s problems my mind was all over the place. I […]

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And back I go…

Back I go.  Sat in a waiting room. Paperwork filled in. Assessment complete.  Waiting to see a complete stranger who will soon know more about me than most people who think they know me.  Who will probably ask me questions that will make me cry.  Who will listen whilst I pour out the jumbled, angry, […]

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